Sunday, December 21, 2025

happy

a reasonable sized house
steady job, secure company
a hot diner every night
warm, happy faces

plans for the future
dreaming of success

friends, neighbors, family
decorations of memories
of so many good times
here and there and everywhere

plans for the future
dreaming of success

trips to the beach
on a warm summer day
laughter at the mall
on a rainy weekend

plans for the future
dreaming of success

quiet nights
busy days
preparing and
compromising

busy

watering the plants
sweeping the floor
scrubbing the stove

reading the papers
checking the mail
calm and relaxed

eager

eagerly approach every day, a bright and shinning adventure
every path a good and righteous way of living to the fullest
scrutinize and contemplate and carefully analyze each way
find the opportunity of greatest investment and safety

carefully plan a cost ratio with a specialty in fun
uncover hidden possibilities for advancement in
new and unsought of places

enjoy

the fresh air
pretty flowers
long walks
the cascading view

contentment and security
promise and potential

New Section 3

forget your mechanical dreams of perfection
your spotless gods parading covetous judgment upon simple happiness
your sultans living in empires of sand
your ivory towers of unreachable expectations
we are a simple minded people
born machines of war
conditioned to fight for peace
trained to live as one blossoming entity
devoid of chaotic thoughts and irrational behaviors
sheep of the herd, sheared annually to line the farmers pockets
books on the shelf, waiting to be read at some point in the imagined future
spotless dishes, washed, stacked and tucked away in the cabinets, left in the dark
we are mindless driving machines
working for hours on end without blinking
we are told to fit in
where the greater good will provide for us
we are part of the vision, imagined by people that are not us
we are attending church, rising in unison
we are attending school, waiting to be called upon
we are entertaining and amused
eager to be criticized on our very being
we are walking any path just because
we are rebelling for no good reason and can't remember why
we are warriors and cowards, walking the line
we are alive, living every day
from nothingness we have arisen, and to nothingness one day shall return

New Section 1

it is not still
it is not movement
it is somewhere in-between
it is ugly and imperfect
it is a walk in the park
it is a transcendental metamorphosis of our parallel realities
it is the tigress in silence forever, waiting for her street urchin's epiphany
it is within all our grasps, yet we are too afraid to open our eyes filled with torment of everything the world conditions us to think that we are not

it is an empire giving itself to the well-being of the people
it is hell freezing over upon sight of the sun
it is anything but cowardly

New Section 2

the voyage has just begun
excitement shakes through my brain
silence rattles the bones
there may not be much
i do not need much
where i'm going i will not be missed
good riddance to that unfaithful woman
and forget that guy she's with now
life on mars will be different
a bold new frontier
waiting to be discovered
open space, quiet and inviting
empowering, strong nothingness
finally free of progress's judicial machines
free of not being good enough, or smart enough, or polite enough for her fancy parents
finally a world not founded on anyone's sacred land or ancestral burial ground
shivering, shaking silence
endless time enveloping me
excitement racing stillness
breathe slowly and
fall into gentle sleep

New Section 4

it's not so bad
the voyage has just begun
it's not so bad
the space suit is extra me
it's not so bad
talking circles to myself
it's not so bad
floating into absent atrophy
rigid with non-movement
the core temperature is falling
into a painless abyss
no, movement within rigid?
atrophy is absent and floating
it's not so bad
circles are talking to me
it's not so bad
extra me and the space suit
it's not so bad
began, it's just a voyage
it's not so bad

New Section 5

realities awkward unfolding

New Section 6

the tangent, align
the spaces between

New Section 7

better tell the
sometimes it's just
but, never mind for now
there's less inside
but much of the new
forget
forget
that's it, for now
how quickly these days

New Section 8

alone we are free
every day every moment
every dark and light
alone we are by choice
there are no others concerned
to disrupt this solitude
there's always a reason
elusively logical, misplaced
alone, free, here by choice

New Section 9

pity is locked in the closet
empowerment is locked in he closet
pity is locked in the closet
what are you, we?
pity is locked in the closet
shame left just around the corner
pity is selfish
to be locked in the closet
pity is really selfish
and doesn't want you to know
pity doesn't care what you think
you're diluting all the misery
pity is really really selfish
pity needs the attention NOW

New Section 10

wrong we are
and wrong we shall always be
needy and seeking
for nothing that matters

New Section 11

don't hesitate
claim the prize
you have won
seize the day
reclaim the moment
tomorrow is another hunt
yesterday is but
a forgotten failure

New Section 12

what do you want?
dirt, gets nothing
left, still sweating
where is there more?
don't dare
to explore
ends are worthless

New Section 13

don't wonder
it's not a mystery
take pride
it's all you have
empty and content
the miracle of today

New Section 14

blame is hidden
everywhere and anywhere
blame is foolish
insolent and neglected
prevalent and intimidating
somewhere we seek not
everywhere we seek always
mysterious and complicated
easy and self-sufficient

New Section 15

forward to infinity
beyond the point
you dare to dream
what matters in progress
we have our goal posts and achievements

New Section 16

here it is forgotten
past tense and didn't happen
interrupting the meaning
unknown and insignificant

New Section 17

time is the money
that I am not making
we are so many hiccups
leading to another belch
yet what is more important
what concept is lost
so many conventions
so little of it

New Section 18

you are the fabrication
of withdrawal communication
notions, sublime

New Section 19

sorry is for the fortunate
sorry is for the pure
for those who did not have time
to think, evermore

New Section 20

hate makes the world go round
congratulations you trash can
hate makes the world grow round
vomiting your insecurities
vomiting your lies
hate will always make the world go round
make it stop, make it stop
hate will always make the world go round

New Section 21

how to smoke:
put it in your mouth
light it
inhale
hold it
hold it
keep holding it
hold it
hold it
hold is some more
hold it
ok, exhale

New Section 22

add one more layer of sincerity

New Section 23

destroy time in space
collapsing and rejuvenating

New Section 24

empty echoes
flightless aspiration
of grand contentment

New Section 25

hollow everything
invisible balancing
serene chaos
glorious failure

New Section 26

still smoking
and what's left
stained and cold
dizzy from your low
still drinking
amongst the sick
all around and nowhere
rotting with life
just some more
just because
still writing
alone and
about nothing

New Section 27

sloppy quiet
sent still
and alive
unaware
but responsive

New Section 28

nothing to say, nothing to say
but freedom
streaming out every orifice

New Section 29

New Section 30

more money than drugs
is always a problem
more booze for the weary
less time, less time

New Section 31

swallow the darkness whole
the multi-vitamin enema
lobotomy of the soul
and float float float float float
THEN JUST DROWN
complex sputtering
confused but clean
the harmony of the mean
the failure
the lucid erosion
scratch nothing more
write time in time outside
to float float float float float float float
around the moon
come home
and back from stars
just stay

New Section 32

get pretty
get healthy
get safe
repeat

New Section 33

life spinning
like plates balanced
atop steady hands

New Section 34

laugh in their faces
all the ceiling tapers
the upright and outstanding
as you plummet
falling through the floor
again and again
repeat as necessary

New Section 35

yet there's always worse
and we never seem to know
how much is left
probably nothing

New Section 36

yet another useless fucking plan

New Section 37

bright sunshine
fresh air
clear skies
the faint scent of nature
the quiet buzz of industry
recalling pleasant memories

New Section 38

the booze will dry up
the money will run out
the excitement will fade
the harsh glare of life's unforgiving
currency will break you

New Section 39

a shirt on the rack
a guitar in the corner
a pen in the case
paper in the binder
yoga mat against the wall

New Section 40

we can not change who we are
simply accommodate who we are not
misconceptions turn rampant
pride must last

New Section 41

failure is always a triumph of knowledge
we fail in success when nothing is learned
a lonely voice
in a conundrum of confusion
wrath does multiply
fear will subside
peace a lonely beacon

New Section 42

time is not meant to be saved
we are here to live
for today, for tomorrow
from yesterday
time is not meant to be saved

New Section 43

you are the loser as
life stampedes past
torn, tattered and submissive?
your fate delights the gods

New Section 44

when we can't listen we hope
the phone
the mail
the &%$@ DOORBELL
but you are not there
and we are the reason

New Section 45

tomorrow's epiphanies will not happen
today's short comings are real
this is your failure
you better believe in it

New Section 46

write away
what past what will
a future so tainted
by memories not
long forgotten

New Section 47

ridiculous pretentious crap
do not proceed

New Section 48

those still awake
dizzy at the dawn
yearning for something
that sleep will forget

New Section 49

nothing's the answer
but wasn't it before
just more unsettled
just more unfinished

New Section 50

flush the art
suppress the fart
stand in line
you'll feel fine

New Section 51

here at history's doorstep
we are a speck of dirt
thrown to the side

New Section 52

now we are free
in the cavernous pit of ourselves
to wander in obscurity
to remember obtuse ramblings
to pretend this is happiness
free from every face
that could make a day shine
free from every pressure
that can't see any meaning
free to do nothing

New Section 53

we all will confront the impossibility of time travel
whatever we choose to believe
whatever we choose to become
we will always know the impossibility of time travel